How People Become Gothic


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I stumbled upon your gothic website while trying to find a way to explain the common grounds that all gothic - trying to use labels as little as possible because I truly wish to try to change my horrifyingly judgments and views upon groups, rather that I wish I could just stop judging people, but that's another topic I'll get to later on - have in common such as a few I found on your gothic website:

living a life free of society's unspoken rules & not fearing gloomed things such as death, but embracing them instead... But that just sparked my interest into being a larger fire than it already had been. So I decided to wander around the gothic website to see what other things would catch my interest. Since I'm only a mere 15 years of age, I became distracted with the games sections which I found amusing for the most part...I did, however, find a few phobias that I have on the list (fear of ghosts & darkness...but it goes back to fear of ghosts, for I'm only afraid that a ghost may be fallowing me.

Anyways, I checked out the Gothic People section in hoping got learn more about the culture and how much of the stereotypical image I had taken on...To my liking, I found that I am slowly losing my connection to the stereotype--slowly but surely--yet I still hold onto much of the...what's the word...I still try to force myself to fit the image...I really hate how I do that; sometimes I don't even know if I'm lying to myself or not...

What made me fall into an even more meloncoloy-like state was reading what happened to Sophie... I hate how people lash out at others that appear different from them; they're most of the reason why I despise living in the US, or at least in this day and age... After reading on her death and how hard it had impacted the Gothic community, I realized how much I actually do have in common with Gothic -- though I think it's selfish of me to take her tradgity to make a connection that raised my spirits back up; I feel horrible about it...I almost...no...I do want to cry, thinking about what must of gone must of happened that day...(I tend to put myself into the main character's place in whatever sort of story I'm reading for some reason) I know, or at least hope, that I would of had enough courage to do what she had done for her lover. But I've never had one myself because I haven't met anyone that I connect with yet, seeing as how young I am... I...I just... I don't know how to describe it... I hate how I keep relating everything to myself at the moment because of the topic...but, I guess I'll have to move on to cover what I'm trying to say...but I am truly sorry that the event had to occur....

I'm trying to barely touch on my personality, spiritual identity, so that it's easier for you to understand why and where I need help in trying to let myself just fall into the gothic subculture without being afraid of rejection from either side of the coin...

I believe gothic are people who embrace darkness and let it's beauty consume them, but that doesn't mean that they can't live in the light as well...They just aren't afraid of all of society's little rules that remain unspoken, yet are known to all. They are artists in some form and can express themselves better than a lot of people. They live their lives by what they find to be moral, not others' definition...

I really admire their views and thoughts...Through out the last year or so, I become Gothic. At first I wasn't even aware of it, but I started to find myself liking black gothic clothing more, along with other stereotypical gothic related areas. After a few months of living my life in that "phase" I started digging into the gothic subculture, trying to learn as much as possible...The farther I dug, the more I found myself changing, breaking away from the gothic stereotype and into my own person--which happened to fit along much easier within the Gothic subculture. That's why I wish to learn more of the gothic lifestyle; it seems to fit me easier than a normal life...I've never really been normal, but I'm glad...Being normal is overrated in my opinion.

-Kuri

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